That awkward moment when I realized that there are so much room for improvement and I don't have fucking materials. 

   I love painting but it seems like painting doesn't love me as much as I love it. I have to persuade it like a boy has to persuade his dream girl. But I don't have enough money for painting materials.

   Looks like this girl will stay this way until I can buy my first ever Wacom Tablet. 

   It's just sad that I need money for improvement. They say money is not really important if you have skills. But I'm kind of into the other side. Wacom doesn't come in one's way just like that. So yeah, I have to save money for this girl on the picture. Don't worry, baby. You'll have your hair and your neck soon. :)

  Oh, and another thing. I fucking want a set of Copic Marker. And even if I save money for it, I won't be able to buy it because I don't know where to find it here in my country. And if ever, you are reading this and wondering what the fuck is that, here..

  

   So now you now what it is (by the way I'm not gonna use it for manga because my sketches are way different). I don't really wish to have that kind of set. I'll be fine with this one on the right. You see? This really is pricey but I think it's worth it. I can imagine what I can do with it. I want to discover what I can do with this. I fucking want to experiment. 

   It's just sad. I hope Singapore has this stuff and I hope they sell Wacom Tablet cheaper than in my country. I'm planning to live there (for now, that's my choice). It's not that I hate Philippines but, hey, I want good opportunities, you know. 

Rest In Peace, Tatang

    I have this friend, I used to call him "tatang" kase tinatawag nya kong "manang". Grade 5 ako, 3rd year sya. 4 years ko na syang hindi nakikita, kinakamusta nya ko sa facebook pag minsan pero bihira ko sya replyan... and just this morning... may nagsabi na saken na wala na sya.

   May cancer ka na pala, akala ko nagpakalbo ka lang. Naalala ko dati sayo ako nagsusumbong pag nagagalit ako kay Kups. Tapos lagi mo ko kinakamusta. Wala rin akong maalalang nakita kitang badtrip, naiinis, o galit kase masayahin kang tao. I'm sorry, tatang. Ngayon ko lang narealize lahat lahat kung kelan wala ka na. I can't believe this. You're a good man, I don't understand why you had to go through this. Nawala ka nung friday, tapos birthday mo ngayong sunday. Sana hindi nalang ikaw yung nagka-cancer. Sana ibang tao nalang. I am so sorry tatang. Alam ko pinapatawad mo na ko kase mabuti kang tao. Rest in peace and happy birthday.